July 2018

July has been a bit of a whirlwind month for me, as has August so far hence the delay in this post going up!

The month began with Max, his parents and their friends all having a cute garden party. It was all very sweet with some delicious nibbles and drinks being passed around alongside great company and conversation. The 28 degree heat and glorious sunshine definitely played a part too!

Getting to see Erin and Gina is a dream as of late. When I left school at 16 life took us all in very different directions, and the 7 years that have passed have been difficult in a sense of trying to see each other or even having time to send messages between ourselves. But this Summer has been amazing for being able to see them, and I am grateful for our patience over the past 7 years that we managed to persevere because being able to see them semi regularly has been super rewarding!
We take it in turns to host nights, and I was in charge this time! Vegan pizza & ice cream, wine, board games, gossip and catch ups, it’s like no time has passed at all.

The wonderful Angela dyed my hair but you can read all about that right here.

The journey to Huddersfield began and I decided to stop at Manchester for a little catch up with Amy and Sara which was lovely!

With the World Cup in full swing we went to watch the semi’s at Corner (a fave cute find Huddersfield) with so much hope for the England team but we were left feeling totally deflated when we lost. We did however have a great evening, throughout the whole world cup the general spirit of the nation was so surprising and uplifting!

The weekend was spent enjoying the sunshine, drinking cold coffee in Espresso corner and pottering around town. We got to see The Incredibles 2, which definitely lived up to expectations, I felt like a big kid all over again! Afterwards I wished that we had watched the first one directly beforehand, but regardless, it was a great watch and I really want to see it again.

I planned a surprise date night for Max on my last evening in Hudd. Whilst he was at work I tidied the house top to bottom, pre-ordered Dominos, got out some freshly washed pj’s, lit some candles and poured two gin and lemonades. Once he was home from work the pizza arrived and we put on his choice of film, ‘Captain America: Civil War’ (not a bad choice but not quite ‘Clueless’…) and snuggled up into bed and just had the most chill evening we have had in a long time. It was lovely just to see Max truly be able to relax after months of hard work!

Erin told G and me of a pub quiz in one of our fave local hangs, so we headed down and absolutely bottled it if I’m totally honest hahaha! But it was such good fun, we did come 3rd so at least we weren’t last and we had such a laugh and a much needed catch up.

My parents took me out for a meal at a local tapas restaurant. Now, this was a big deal for me, two things terrify me when it comes to eating, 1. Public eating, and 2. Tapas. This was a big, emotional hurdle for me but the world didn’t crumble around me and I didn’t implode so that’s a massive step forward! But moving onwards…

Erin, G and I went to ASK Italian for a catch up and I ate exclusively vegan, which is something that I’ve been wanting to do for a while. As I have previously mentioned, I am in eating disorder recovery and I am on a very strict eating schedule currently. I have been vegetarian for a while, but skip out on dairy to try and help control my endometriosis better. I’d love to go vegan but it’s not the right time for me in my recovery, but eating out I do challenge myself to eat vegan!

I had the most beautiful customised vegan pizza with peppers, mushrooms and olives and a delicious glass of wine!

It was the perfect time for a good long catch up and we spent hours upon hours chatting which was much needed for all three of us.

The next day was a long car journey up to Huddersfield, in an attempt to move Max from one house to another with his parents. We took a break and went to Halifax again for the day, it was an odd combination of blue skies, 30 degree heat and sunshine, mixed with random bursts of thunder and lightning rain storms!

I was worried John (the cat) wouldn’t be about especially with the weather being so bad, but he pulled through and came to say goodbye, which broke my tiny heart, I love him so so so much and I firmly believe that he always knew when I was feeling down, he would always pop up whenever I was having a bad day. I know it sounds crazy and kind of cheesy but that street cat was my absolute fave and always cheered me up!

Of course it would be torrential the weekend of moving house, but we managed to get it done over the two days and felt very accomplished whilst sat in the new house eating Chinese food and having a good catch up with Joe and Chris.

After a couple of days of settling into the new house, we jumped back on a train and I went straight into work, before packing for 110 Above Festival.

This festival is really special to me, Max and I have been going for the past 3 years, the first year we attended by chance, whilst we were looking for something to do over our anniversary weekend, we loved the line up so had a bit of a ‘yolo’ moment and we haven’t looked back since!

But that will have a whole separate other post, so you’ll have to keep your eyes peeled for that one!

Some July faves…

Album / Playlist: The 110 Above Festival playlist on Spotify to prep me for the festival at the start of next month!

Song: Another The 1975 track this month (soz, not soz) “Love It If We Made It”, major heart eyes.

TV / Movie: Started watching Ackley Bridge, was so sceptical at first as it just seemed like a new era Waterloo Road but I am really enjoying it so far

Place: I feel like my feet haven’t really touched the ground this month, so my favourite place this month would have to be the train!

Memory: Getting to see my lovely Erin and G, it makes the world of difference when I’m stuck at home.

Accomplishment: This will have to be going for tapas and not having a total meltdown! A big F you to my eating disorder and a big step forward in my recovery!!

This month was lovely, intense, hard, and all the emotions in between, balancing the socialising, travelling, full time working, weekly hospital appointments and regular flare ups, it’s all getting a bit much!

So please in advance accept my apologies for the potential lack in posts over the next month or two. I’m about to hit a very crucial point in my eating disorder recovery process and I need to give it 110%, so I’m possibly going to have to put the blog on the back burner for the foreseeable as my recovery is my main priority right now.

I hope you all had a beautiful July and I will see you soon,

All of my love as always,

Journaling Maddie 




June in photos

June was a big old rollercoaster and I can’t remember anything that has happened to be truthful, currently praising past Maddie for documenting the month through photos!

Here goes…



pre end of term gig with my faves




one love manchester view




One Love Manchester with Amy



pre eot gig // amy



pre eot gig // max



cat cafe manchester




ice cream date (the most amazing sorbet i’ve ever had) // afflecks



sunshine in manchester



anniversary meal on the balcony!



end of term partaaaay // amy




canal views // max




cutest fluff at the cat cafe




the next revolution

19894648_10155421982668398_3274910180527830282_nare we ever not drinking coffee?




cat cafe for our anniversary



amazing sunset




wine wine wine




manchester day!


happy third anniversary bab


M x

oh what a week

I’ve had such an intense week and it really feels like its been non stop! Its just been super dull long tasks that felt never ending but today I’m on my drive back to Birmingham for a little while so it has all come to a halt!

The week started with slogging around the flat during the day, mainly just sat on the balcony enjoying this beautiful sunshine that we so rarely get in Manchester (convinced I was slowly tanning but apparently I’m still as pale as ever)!

All week I was putting off two tasks, one – finding the perfect graduation card for my sister, and two – packing for a funeral, said graduation and a holiday.


I managed to get Sara to come with me into town to find a card for my sister by telling her we were going to Paperchase (who can seriously say no to a Paperchase outing?!). We spent quite a while there as the sale was on, but I left with just a graduation card, some quirky postcards perfect for featured photos, and a mug for Max (because all he does is complain he doesn’t have “his own” mug at my apartment) which has an elephant on it and says “Wanna see my trunk?” for like a quid instead of £7 so that was a bargain! Sara on the other hand was properly lured in by the sales and went a little crazy!



We then decided to make a bit of a day of it, and went around some other sales, including the dreaded Urban Outfitters sale, with 90% of the items still being mega over priced and out of budget, but I did manage to pick up a cute striped crop top that I completely fell in love with.


As if we hadn’t already spent enough money, we decided to treat ourselves to the Pizza Hut lunch buffet (the best lunch buffet in history, maybe).


Throughout the week I’ve had several visits from the “oven man”, as he so eloquently refers to himself on text, because the oven decided to die, then the grill, then the oven again. I was home alone for the most part of the week so it was kinda nice to have the company instead of talking to myself like a mad woman!


After much procrastinating, I started to pack my stuff up. I hate packing and usually do it the night before so I don’t overthink it too much, but with so many different events and occasions coming up over the next few weeks, I actually had to plan this one out.

Taking it all in the car home right now honestly feels like I’m moving out! I usually just stuff my clothes in a couple of rucksacks but mom insisted on me packing my clothes into boxes, so I’m currently sat squashed in the back of the car surrounded by 12 (yes, 12) boxes of clothes, shoes and necessities. I am yet to work out how to bring this all back up on the train, though mind.


I have also had a super busy week with work. I distribute leaflets for several companies outside venues promoting gigs and all that jazz! I mainly work late evenings for an hour or so. The pay is good and also means that if I want a day time job in the future then I can easily do both! I usually only get a couple of shifts a week, but this week has been a bit on the hectic side, as MIF (Manchester international festival) was taking place meaning there were loads more events on than normal, so I worked 8 shifts this week, 3 of them being in one day! It’s a fun job and I quite enjoy walking around Manchester to new and different venues having a mini solo adventure haha!


But seriously, I feel like yesterday killed.me.off.

It was such a hot day which is a bad start for me anyways because it sets my POTs through the roof! But yes, hot day combined with flyering with no shade, walking to and from venues, and trying to finish packing / cleaning in between totally ruined me. Then to top it off I really struggled to sleep – even though I was shattered (logic, please?)! So waking up this morning was a real struggle but I got up with good time, finished packing and met my parents!


We went for food at the Botanist for a Sunday lunch, which was daaaaank! Then got back to the flat and packed the car up, and are now currently on our way home!

It feels odd going back to Birmingham after so long, I am so happy in Manchester and feel a little down about going back, but to be honest, I will hardly be home!

I go to Essex first thing tomorrow until Wednesday, then Thursday we are off to Derby for Lydia’s Graduation, a weekend at home (but it’s already full of plans meeting people and packing – again) then off to our caravan in Bournemouth for a week with Max, and then once we are back, I am heading straight back to Manchester, so a pretty hectic few weeks to say the least!


Soundtrack to my journey home started with Haim’s new album, but then I got sick of the Spotify app because I’m on the free version and it stresses me out haha, so I listened to the whole of the Believe album because I forgot I had the Purpose album saved on my laptop (part time Justin Bieber fan, sorry not sorry), and now I’m listening to that since I realised I had it!


Just realised I’ve been typing away for quite a little while, so I’m going to stop here!


I hope you have had a fabulous week!


M x