2017 was a bit of a roller-coaster, and I spent the majority of the year with my head all over the place, which I realise now, so my main goal is to get healthy in 2018. Without divulging too much information, I began to spiral downwards last summer, and only really believed it was happening nearly 6 months later. My mental health has always been a sore subject for me, I have spent the last 13 years yo-yoing between relapse and recovery. I want 2018 to be the year that I really look after my mental health and take control, rather than it controlling me!
I also want to begin my journey to self love. This definitely goes hand in hand with trying to take control of my mental health. I have spent my whole life trying to please others, when really I should be focusing on myself, my health, and university, so that’s the big change for this year. I think I’ll struggle with this one, I hate letting people down or being controversial, but at the same time I know that now is the time for me to put myself first.
I really want to get back into writing this year. Obviously, I have this blog and my journal, but I used to love love love writing to people. When Max first moved to university, I’d write him every month! I love making people smile or just simply keeping in touch with people, plus I find writing super therapeutic.
I want to excel in my studies this year. I really struggled with first year of uni, but I proved myself wrong and worked hard and was proud of myself by the end of it.
I want to have fun, so so so much fun. Life is so short, and I want to enjoy it, stop sweating the small things and live life to the fullest.
I want to experience more live music, I want to explore new places – be it right under my nose or the other side of the world, I want to do everything with 100%, I want to see more of my old school friends, and I want to make the most of every moment.
In regards to journalingmaddie, I have no real goals that I want to hit. I started this blog as a personal journal, and that is still my intention! I want to still document my photos, memories and music however I’m not entirely sure how I want to do so. Maybe over summertime I will use this as a platform to talk about things that I am passionate about, as this is something I’ve not only always wanted to tackle, but also have enjoyed writing about previously, but for now it will be a personal journal. All I know is that this blog is solely for fun and for me, so I want to document as much as possible for future me!
I am determined to tackle 2018 head on, I have the best group of people surrounding me and I believe in myself and what this year will hold for me.